Post by BuzzerMcMarcel on Jul 22, 2014 1:15:32 GMT
Hello everyone and thank you for taking the time to read this.
For those of you who don't know me, my name is Marcel and I am a member of INSMA, and ex-moderator of this forum. How I became EX-moderator, I will try to explain in the following story:
When this forum was set up, I was appointed as moderator, meaning I'd have to ensure the day-to-day well-being of it, and keep possible intruders at bay. I shared this position with fellow moderator "Echo One" and the admin, "Shazepe III". I have always experienced this cooperation as most pleasing and open.
Soon after the forum was up and running smoothly, it was decided to create our own "secure channel" in the shape of the IRC-chat. On the chat I had the same tasking as on the forum.
In there I have read the most funny, amazing, and strange storys in, up to now, my whole life.
The next logical step was to join forces with or colleagues/competitors (mark which is not applicable) of Priyom. This brought even more experience, knowledge but most of all friends to the already buzzing group of members. It also meant a higher workload for the mods, but I would like to think we managed it rather well at the time.
However, school and internship unfortunately made it impossible for me to be online each and every day. After not having been on for some time, I came back, only to find out that my INSMA-friend and colleague "Echo One" had been banned. Being a good friend of Echo and not wanting to have him leave for good, I began asking as to why and how he got banned. This asking soon turned into a sort of frustration and later hatred towards certain members, due to my emotion-led belief that everyone was against Echo. At one point, I even hacked the forum and banned all but the admin. Thinking about that action now, I can't possibly describe how ashamed I am about what I did.
The result of this and other actions was that I lost my moderator-function, a title I had been rather proud of while I had it.
This punishment made one message very clear to me: it was time to take a step back for a while, and not come back to INSMA until I felt I was ready to stand up and apologize for what I had done.
Having seen the chat of the WebSDR Twente be recently closed once again due to some stupid and childish trolls, and seeing that the INSMA community was, despite rumours to the contrary, still booming with activity, I decided now was the right time to return and openly apologize for my shameful actions.
Now I know from experience that simply saying sorry or asking for forgiveness does not change, erase or make us forget what happened. Doing so would only make it seem as if I'm trivializing the matter.
Therefore I leave the decision whether or not to forgive me up to you. Should you choose to forgive me, we can be friends for life. Should you choose not to forgive me, we can be friends for life.
Anyway, it's been a rather busy day for me, so I will leave you with this short poem:
I know i'm not a perfect friend,
You're broken heart, i've tried to mend.
Instead i made you hurt and cry,
Maybe i should say goodbye.
Would it be better for me to go?,
I asked you, and you said "No".
Why say no when i hurt you so bad,
But believe me,
you're not the only one that's sad.
I made my best friend hurt like mad,
If i left would you be glad?.
Deep in my heart,
I'll always know,
I'll love you always,
Even if i go!
For those of you who don't know me, my name is Marcel and I am a member of INSMA, and ex-moderator of this forum. How I became EX-moderator, I will try to explain in the following story:
When this forum was set up, I was appointed as moderator, meaning I'd have to ensure the day-to-day well-being of it, and keep possible intruders at bay. I shared this position with fellow moderator "Echo One" and the admin, "Shazepe III". I have always experienced this cooperation as most pleasing and open.
Soon after the forum was up and running smoothly, it was decided to create our own "secure channel" in the shape of the IRC-chat. On the chat I had the same tasking as on the forum.
In there I have read the most funny, amazing, and strange storys in, up to now, my whole life.
The next logical step was to join forces with or colleagues/competitors (mark which is not applicable) of Priyom. This brought even more experience, knowledge but most of all friends to the already buzzing group of members. It also meant a higher workload for the mods, but I would like to think we managed it rather well at the time.
However, school and internship unfortunately made it impossible for me to be online each and every day. After not having been on for some time, I came back, only to find out that my INSMA-friend and colleague "Echo One" had been banned. Being a good friend of Echo and not wanting to have him leave for good, I began asking as to why and how he got banned. This asking soon turned into a sort of frustration and later hatred towards certain members, due to my emotion-led belief that everyone was against Echo. At one point, I even hacked the forum and banned all but the admin. Thinking about that action now, I can't possibly describe how ashamed I am about what I did.
The result of this and other actions was that I lost my moderator-function, a title I had been rather proud of while I had it.
This punishment made one message very clear to me: it was time to take a step back for a while, and not come back to INSMA until I felt I was ready to stand up and apologize for what I had done.
Having seen the chat of the WebSDR Twente be recently closed once again due to some stupid and childish trolls, and seeing that the INSMA community was, despite rumours to the contrary, still booming with activity, I decided now was the right time to return and openly apologize for my shameful actions.
Now I know from experience that simply saying sorry or asking for forgiveness does not change, erase or make us forget what happened. Doing so would only make it seem as if I'm trivializing the matter.
Therefore I leave the decision whether or not to forgive me up to you. Should you choose to forgive me, we can be friends for life. Should you choose not to forgive me, we can be friends for life.
Anyway, it's been a rather busy day for me, so I will leave you with this short poem:
I know i'm not a perfect friend,
You're broken heart, i've tried to mend.
Instead i made you hurt and cry,
Maybe i should say goodbye.
Would it be better for me to go?,
I asked you, and you said "No".
Why say no when i hurt you so bad,
But believe me,
you're not the only one that's sad.
I made my best friend hurt like mad,
If i left would you be glad?.
Deep in my heart,
I'll always know,
I'll love you always,
Even if i go!